XXX

Here we go again. Going back to first place I had the courage to travel solo. Going back to the time when I had to courage to take the step forward after my surgery. Going back to the person I wish I bet my future with.

It was not even solo before since I was with my friend then went on out separate trips. It was just a step forward but a dozen of strides back, left, and right. I am lost as I had been put together.

Now, a lot has changed.

Six years apart. One pandemic.

Thousands of life lessons.

Few successes and more failures.

Millions of people have passed.

I’m still alone in the room. But, I don’t have to wait for anyone to come.

I’m still alone in the room. But, I’m still carefree as my heart desires.

I’m still alone in the room. But, I’m not in awe of everything.

But, I have you - you who have helped me through the nights I wish I din’t pour my heart out. jt

But, I have you - you who believed in me even though I’m no one near perfect. mm

But, I have you - you who make me believe life is a battle but you always have to be ready to fight. lu

But, I have you - you who understood me and broke me gently. xx

But, I have you - you who opened your doors to a scaredy-cat and believed I could be a tiger. ts

But, I have you - you who constantly make me emotionally unavailable. hm

I’m stepping out of my shadows. I’m moving outside of my comfort. I’m trailing my dream.

Here I go again.