I'm on a High!

gusto ko lang mairita for a sec! at lahat ng dugo ko pumupunta sa utak ko. the nerve. no kidding, pre. no wonder nairita siya sayo. gusto kong magwala pero i want to be as civilized as possible. i just want to let this AWT!

naman. gusto ko lang magblog. pero wala naman akong gustong sabihin. wala. wala. wala. wala. wala. wala. wala. wala naman talaga. wala. inaantok ako. sana natutulog na lang ako. pero eto ako nagtatype. weirdo. pero kapag natulog naman ako. may maiisip akong pwedeng iblog. pero kapag di ako natulog. aantukin lang ako lalo. e kung matulog na lang kaya ako? try ko.

First and the most important question. What is IT? Is "IT" a thing? a person? a group of person? an animal? a structure? a course? an assignment? I think people around me knew about this. But, I just defer facts, observations, hypotheses and everything. It must have been the weirdest part of my life as of this moment. Still, I got some clueless. To make it more complicated, I really do not know how. Or why? Why do I have to do this? Why not do this? I don't think I could. Or I am not capable of doing so. I aint Iron Man. Spidey. Or what. Why putting? Naaah. I just saw them. hahahaha. To make everything shuffled. Disarrayed. When it is over. Definitely, life is different. Definitely, life is A LOT different. Definitely, I'm gonna miss everything. Definitely, life would be less complicated. Definitely, I could breathe more comfortably. Definitely, I could not write more. But, definitely, I won't be happy as I was. Honestly, life would be different. Life would be les...

I am actually thinking of re-doing everything. I mean for this blog. (or multi) Whatever is appropriate. Glimpse? On a High? What could be next? I actually think my theme is quite cool. (At least, for myself) But, I felt this is not really what I want. Maybe, something must take over. I don't know. Maybe, the right idea comes at the right time. I guess this is not now.

Woah. The first week of the term has just finished. The second week is just saying hello. But, the stress level it is imposing is really magnitude at its highest. It's kinda weirdo. I have been through a lot these days. I mean, the so-called vacation is included. There were lots of "gimik" stuffs. Though, there were less party party. But, there was a contest. I made questions for a quiz show. My lappytoppy was doomed. I bought another. Then, I am using it. Lots of letters. For spons. For schs, colls and univs. For judges. For almost everyone. I emailed lotsa people. When I say lots, I mean LOTS! Even though the term has not started, I am already stressed. I don't regret that I take this responsibility. I don't. I actually like this. I am inspired. For I know, after all of this, I have proved something. But I guess, there is more to this, or should I say these. From all of these hardships, there is something. Beyond happiness. Fulfillment. Approval. Or manly desire...