It doesn't feel good. Does it feel right?
Never in my life would I expect to feel this brain-damaging and heart-breaking moment. I never expected to feel this guilt and uneasiness toward the judgment I have made recently. Teaching was one of my goals in life. I have even put it in most of my journals and other essays required in my previous courses. Surprisingly, I was able to fulfill this goal in 21 years time. And, I was blessed to have students who catered me enough the welcome I need to feel worthy of the profession. It was not the most difficult thing to do - imparting things from myself to these students who were eager to learn and develop themselves. Perhaps, this would be exciting for I will be one of the instruments for the creation and moulding of true-blooded Mapuans. As a professor, I tried to give everything. I tried to cover the necessary things to be learnt and I tried to give more than what they deserve. I tried to go beyond what is needed. I tried to provide everything they need to pass. I know my effort is ...