What 2014 Feels Like
It's almost two years since I last post something for an audience to see or read. I never know what it feels like to write on this white canvas. It's not the most exciting thing to do but somehow it's fulfilling.
I have been reminded of what I was used to be and what I could be. There was not complete turn around of what I like. I still love writing. And, I can still do those unimaginable things I used to do.
It's strange how I seem to write every bit of emotion I have without telling what those are. I never wanted to share my life to those who'd like to pry on something. I'd rather keep it on my own lest nobody undeserving got into my way.
How can I sum up those days I missed blogging?
I owe it to myself to keep me reminded of the things that I did. Probably, one day when I get to write my own memoir, I'd just look it up to this.
Construction. Teaching. Masters. Detox. Soul search.
Those probably could sum those times I did not post anything. It was boring. It felt like a routine. That's why I want to have a change.
The change starts in a bit. I'm afraid of all the changes that may happen. But, I know God put me in this situation to learn more and finally know I want to do for so long.
I have achieved some of my goals. Maybe, this is the moment to pursue others. I don't think I'm not cut for this/these but maybe I'll do better in whatever place I am.
As of now, leaving the country is not my option. But, that has become a popular choice for some of my friends. I am sad, personally that I can't get to see them when I wanted to. But, I am excited for they can experience new things.
This year is like any other year. There will be changes. I may not like drastic changes but if it's for the better I will embrace it wide open.
I guess, when you are at your lowest, you get to see how high you were and how higher you want to be. And, you'll never forget the people who lifted you and never leave your side.
When you reach the bottom, there's no way but up.
I have been reminded of what I was used to be and what I could be. There was not complete turn around of what I like. I still love writing. And, I can still do those unimaginable things I used to do.
It's strange how I seem to write every bit of emotion I have without telling what those are. I never wanted to share my life to those who'd like to pry on something. I'd rather keep it on my own lest nobody undeserving got into my way.
How can I sum up those days I missed blogging?
I owe it to myself to keep me reminded of the things that I did. Probably, one day when I get to write my own memoir, I'd just look it up to this.
Construction. Teaching. Masters. Detox. Soul search.
Those probably could sum those times I did not post anything. It was boring. It felt like a routine. That's why I want to have a change.
The change starts in a bit. I'm afraid of all the changes that may happen. But, I know God put me in this situation to learn more and finally know I want to do for so long.
I have achieved some of my goals. Maybe, this is the moment to pursue others. I don't think I'm not cut for this/these but maybe I'll do better in whatever place I am.
As of now, leaving the country is not my option. But, that has become a popular choice for some of my friends. I am sad, personally that I can't get to see them when I wanted to. But, I am excited for they can experience new things.
This year is like any other year. There will be changes. I may not like drastic changes but if it's for the better I will embrace it wide open.
I guess, when you are at your lowest, you get to see how high you were and how higher you want to be. And, you'll never forget the people who lifted you and never leave your side.
When you reach the bottom, there's no way but up.
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