Nothing to Worry. Just Follow.

I have written statements and I decided to delete them all. It's actually what I have been doing when I write my journals and reflections for the last minute. I have written 4 expectations to the course, 4 mid-term assessments, 4 final assessment and 5 reflections for quizzes in one week. I wonder how they seem to be alike.

This term is officially over. This year is officially done. My third year in MIT has come to an end. It is not a blast as last term. But, it is as special as all the terms I learn, enjoy and become stressed.

I may seem foolish but what matters to me is what I have learned - not just the lessons on the book but most especially the lessons the life is teaching me from every circumstance. First, I am very happy that I passed every subject in my load. It was not difficult but it gave me some nerves. Second, I am upset and disappointed that I am not a scholar, either half or full. Again, as I have said from almost all of the journals, scholarship is not about the pride that you have been tagged as scholar, nor the deductions on expenses but the fact that you make your parents proud of you. Third, I have no idea on what emotion should prevail.

It is also part of my journals - learnings. More than passing a subject, it is important of what you learn.

I'll start from Monday and the first subject. The primary lesson that I have learned in this subject is <drum rolls> to wake up as early as 5 AM. This is my first time to have such an early class. (Except from Field and NSTP, both were adjusted to 8 or 9 AM) Also, concepts on soil mechanics are indeed fun. I understand them. Maybe. Haha. Moreover, time management is one of the lessons that I have learned in this class. Scenario: CE-EnSE Outing on Saturday, three (3) laboratory reports to be passed on Monday. The whole week was very stressful if not with time management, I was not able to pass even one LR.

Next, Sewerage. Previously, it was incorporated with Water supply. Some topics were discussed. I felt that it would be enough. But, as we approached the half of the term, there were more topics to be discussed and notes to be written. Ultimately, as the term neared its end, there were still essential topics that were not discussed. I guess my learning is a term (almost three months) is not enough. Honestly, I am now confused on what specialization I will choose. Before, I am convinced to be inclined on structural. But now, Geotech and Water are making me think twice, thrice and many times.

Then, Transpo should be here. But, I'll save the best for last.

RCD. Reinforced Concrete Design. I bet it was not difficult at all. Maybe, understanding was my problem. Or presence of mind? Or whatever. I don't want to point fingers. Significant learning? It is more on the academic side. Beams. SRB. DRB (argh. IDK this at all.) T-beams. Slabs. One-way. Two-way. Columns. Axial. With eccentricity. Biaxial. Stirrups. Development lengths. More to that is the effort that I applied on my project. I wrote 122 pages in one week. All my effort was there. I even had a tag line "A for ey-fort." It means that giving your best even under constricted time. Grace under pressure.

Lastly, Traffic and Highway Engg. or Transpo 1. As I have said in my journal, reporting is the way of our professor in teaching. I am not in favor this but I am not against it at all. I believe that it builds the confidence of students to speak in front and dealing with people. Well, I am glad that I had high scores on the reporting. It means I am capable of speaking in front of people, mostly of future engineers. It matters. Honestly, I am upset with my grade. But, what can I do? What's done is done.

Of course, I have to attribute what I have learned for the professors

* Ma'am Villaseñor, for being generous for information, experiences and stories that I enjoy, laugh on and gain bits of knowledge. Also, for being understanding to all our shortcomings. I know you will not be able to read this but, I sincerely thank you.

* Sir Villamor, for seeing my potential. Though, you did not voice that out. I felt it when you have me 90% for individual report. Also, for cracking jokes I laughed out loud. Thank you.

* Sir Alviento, for being generous for sharing your knowledge on ETABS. It is actually one of the important learning for this term. With that, we were able to design a four-storey building. Thank you.

Thank you part for the people who helped me, inspired me and nothing me. :)

Well, I have to thank these people: (1) My parents for giving much support and understanding for my mood swings. Having a son like me is difficult. I know. hahaha. (2) THE BLOCK for sharing the stress, pressure, shear, torsion and everything . 'Till next Dads celebration. It was one of the best dinners I had after stressful months. It was precious because we understand each other - our hardships and sleepless nights. (3) B10. My original block. Though we've been separated by the curriculum, we are still block mates by heart. (4) CE friends. You may say that we are not close, but I draw down inspiration and strength from you. The fact that we talk means I am not alone. (5) PICE members and officers. Thank you for your votes and support. (6) PICE soon-to-be officers. Thank you for understanding the limitations of my capabilities. We shall pull it off together. And (7) Jesus Christ. My Saviour. My Redeemer. My Healer. Everything. There are so much to thank for. But, the fact that I breath is a thing to thank for.

It doesn't apply to me that when I face problems and trials, I forget God. For me, it is the other way around. When I face trials, I become closer to God. I talk to Him more. I sing His praises more.

"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."

Maybe, He is teaching a lesson to me. I know everything is under His control. Nothing to worry. Just follow.